Sunday, May 19, 2002

Motivation, Or Lack Thereof

AKA: How to get absolutely nothing done over an entire weekend.

I've been in one of those funks lately, where I seem to have a lot to do, and yet I still seem to get very little done.

At work I spend a lot of time running around to various meetings or fighting fires because something that was working all of a sudden stopped working, and even when I do find time to work on something, I still don't actually seem to make any progress. A quick look at my TODO list seems to show about the same number of things as it had in the beginning of the week. Sure, I've got some things done, but new problems seem to be piling up just as fast as the old ones are resolved, if not faster.

At home, I just seem to end up sitting around watching TV and surfing the web, when I could be spending that time doing something productive. It's not like I don't have other things to do, since I've got a pile of books I want to get to reading, and about a million things to do to get ready for moving, and probably a ton of other stuff I could be doing that I'm forgetting...

It's ironic, I've been talking to one of my ex-girlfriends lately, and we've been trying to get together to do things, and she always seems to be busy. This is the person who I broke up with (among other reasons) because too much of her life was centered around 'us', and not enough around 'her', to the point where I would feel guilty if I went out and did anything without her. Now, she's the one who's got a million things going on, and I'm sitting at home bored.

I'm thinking of taking up aikido, since I really need to get into the habit of exercising more, and a bunch of people I know from school do it and seem to enjoy it a lot. Perhaps I'll get motivated and sign up for lessons once I finish the whole apartment-change thing.

I'm sure I'll snap out of this funk soon, since I've been in them before and they never last too long, but damn they're irritating when you're in them.